Remembering My Snugs With Love Always

This is the plant the vet gave me after Snuggle's Passed Away

Beautiful Flowers

In Loving Memory Of My Snuggles

Snuggles's plant sent by the vet last year

Snuggles with mum Sandra Bellamy

It’s really hard for me to write this post. A few days ago, it was the first year anniversary of Snuggles’s death. Writing it a few days later, does not ease the pain I feel inside, although I had hoped it would not feel so raw.

This is the plant the vet sent to me after she died. Normally flowering plants die on me, but not this one. It has more flowers on it than last year.

Snuggles – I called my snugs for short, was a best friend to me, she licked the tears from my face when my Grandma passed away last year.

I feel too emotional to write any more.

I love you my Snuggles always and forever more xxxxxxxx

Remembering Snuggles with Love

Hi everyone

Thanks for your wishes for my 4 year Bloggerversary.

Things are starting to look up, since my 5 weeks of sadness, and intense tender hooks with my guineapigs. Losing Cinnamon, and then Snuggles exactly a month later, has been a huge blow.

Thankfully, Snow is on the mend from her operation for a bad mouth abscess. She is going to be on antibiotics for another month, and still being looked after by my mum.

I have to say, I am still grieving for Snuggles. Despite the fact, I still have Daisy and Chestnut, it is a lot quieter than it used to be in my flat, and the atmosphere is different. I am trying to get used to it, but it’s hard.

Someone upset me in my day job, by making insensitive comments about my guineapigs and laughing. I won’t go into what they said, but it caused me to cry. At the end of the day, they apologised, but it made my grief worse. Add to that, some colleagues had not been happy with me taking time off for my piggies, it has made me think about the situation a lot more. Instead of just focusing on the future, like I was trying to do, and coping with my loss, I feel I have been grieving, and back in a head place that’s not as healthy. Although my Grandma died in June, her ashes have not yet been scattered.

Having said all of that, I am still looking towards an awesome future. I have just relaunched my newly designed http://www.blogtrainer.co.uk site, that is much better than the previous version.

I have been mentoring some people in their businesses and now starting to officially launch my QuirkyMentoring.com services, as part of my Quirky empire/business. Specialising in Quirky Mentoring reports for businesses. I have yet to build the website; but I just launched on Twitter with my http://www.twitter.com/quirkymentoring and Facebook page, http://www.facebook.com/quirkymentoring.

I am already getting a lot of followers for my http://www.twitter.com/quirkycoaching account on Twitter, and I haven’t finished building the site yet. I just launched Quirky Coaching on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/quirkycoaching As you can imagine, being quirky, it’s like no other coaching that I know of on the planet. In the fact it breaks the codes and conventions of traditional coaching, by mixing advice and coaching together. Rules are, you don’t give advice in a coaching session. From my own personal experience of being coached, that’s what I didn’t like about traditional coaching. I want to think up ideas myself, but if I can’t, I want advice from someone with experience, knowledge or information, that may help me to advance my career quicker – Hey presto, that’s what Quirky Coaching is all about. Incorporating the 6 principles of Quirky Coaching success: Consult/Advise/Mentor/Coach/Train/Evaluate. Using a combination of some, or all of these, to get the desired result.

I want to take this opportunity to remember Snuggles with love, and post a never seen before photos of me and Snugs, along with photos of the plant, the vets sent to me, with their condolences. They also sent me a belated card for Cinnamon’s death.

Snuggles licked the tears from my face, after my Grandma died, when I was in my home alone. She was physically there for me, when others weren’t. That’s priceless and special, I feel I owe her so much. I hope I can move on and the hole in my heart will heal. I miss Snuggles so much. Love you my baby forever xxxxxxxx

As I type this, I am poorly with a tummy bug and flu like symptoms. I went to sleep yesterday for the night, just after 5.30pm. That is unheard of for me.

I know I haven’t commented much on your blogs recently, and for that I apologise. I often think of you, I am just flat out with so much work at the moment, and not getting as much time to blog. I need to build and finish 6 websites before Christmas, and finalise my Break through the barriers of redundancy book. Thanks for your patience, loyalty and support. It is very much appreciated.

I hope you have a great week and I will write as soon as I am able to.

Sandra

A Loving Memory Poem About Snuggles From Hutachagoodlife – Thank you

In Loving Memory Of My Snuggles Who Sadly Died This Morning

A huge thank you to hutchagoodlife.wordpress.com from the bottom of my heart, for these lovely words and your beautiful poem. You have touched my heart and soul. Snuggles would have loved the poem, just as much as I do.

hutchagoodlife

Oct 25, 6:47 am

Whee are utterly heartbroken and so very very sorry for your loss.

Snuggles may have passed away,
And your heart’s clearly breaking,
But remember all the good times,
And let them ease the aching.
Let the memory of her squeak,
And the smile on her lips,
Bring you some small comfort,
When your heart’s in griefs grips.
She is no longer of this Earth,
Over the Rainbow Bridge she stays,
Happy, free and painlessly,
In the meadows in the sky she plays.
So dry your tears,
And take my hand,
Smile my dear friend,
Because, like a circle,
Her life and your love,
Will surely never end.

You are in our thoughts

xxxx

In Loving Memory Of My Snuggles Who Sadly Died This Morning

Hi everyone

 

 

 

 

Sadly Snuggles died at the vets at around 3am this morning. I got a phone call at around 9am.

I have felt devastated all day, upset, and really sorry I could not have Snuggled/Cuddled her for longer yesterday, because I felt so faint in the vets.

Today I have had to do practical things, that I really wasn’t in the mood for. I had to go to the bank to transfer money for rent and set up two accounts. Including, one for pet insurance. I also had to take the money out of my ISA to pay for Snuggles’s operation.

After the excruciating amount of money I have spent over last year and this year, I need to insure Snow and Chesnut. As Daisy had a lump problem before, and may still have one (check-up this Thursday), I cannot insure her for that, but I can for other illnesses that are non-related to any pre-existing conditions.

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To my beautiful Snuggles:

Your eyes are gleaming,

Your love is beaming,

A ray of sunshine back into my heart.

I remember you as a baby,

Your tiny nose,

Furry coat

And fluffy whiskers

You always had such a bounce and spring in your step,

You lived your life with no regret,

You wheeked and wheeked for your favourite veg,

You bumbled along, bold and amazing.

You were a warrior and my hero,

Seeing you yesterday come back to life, from almost dead, was incredible,

You are sensational,

You are my bestest friend

And you always will be.

You licked my tears away from my face

With your gentle grace,

As I cried uncontrollably from my Grandma’s death.

Even though you were frailer,

Your eyes squinting and paler,

You still made the effort to lick my tears this week,

You were a second mum to me.

You were so cute, cuddly and snuggly.

You loved snuggling under my chin,

If guineapigs could smile,

You would have had an awesome grin.

You were the most beautiful and precious pig,

A gorgeous tri-colour.

If I grow up to be half as strong as you were,

I will be so proud of me,

But best of all,

I will always be so proud of you my dearest Snuggles,

You will forever be,

My little baby.

I love you with all of my heart,

Now and forever,

One day we will again be together,

But for now,

I will enjoy each and every minute of life.

Because to be alive is great,

It’s the greatest blessing and comfort of all,

I love you forever and more,

Eight good luck kisses for you

XXXXXXXX

Say hello to Peaches and Cinnamon too.

I am happy we discussed death in your final days,

So it’s not such a haze,

But a sacred place where we have been together,

I love you, come what may be the weather.

We will always be furry soul mates,

With no hesitate.

I love you until eternity and back.

My dear Snuggles,

I am thrilled you lived to be three,

Now go and be pain free,

Play in the garden of heaven,

I would say save a place for me,

But I don’t want to tempt my fate,

I want to live to be a hundred,

Or much later.

I still have hope, optimism and positivity,

You always inspired that within me.

I love you for that and all of your amazing ways,

I love you for you, always xxxxxxxx

Never Give Up!

I saw the ‘Never give up’ photo on Facebook, and knew that I must do exactly that. Snuggles has been fighting for her life and I wasn’t about to give up on her.  Even though my mum’s vet in Dawlish suggested she may need to be put to sleep, my own vet in Exeter, said there is a slim chance she may survive the operation and he would perform it. She had 3 fatty lumps removed and her ovaries and uterus that they were attached to. The photo is of the smallest lump that was removed. She pulled through the anesthetic well, which is a miracle, and is recovering in the vets tonight. One major problem still remains, her liver is badly damaged with fatty degeneration. It is yellow and may or may not repair itself. I have to cut veg down or out of her diet completely and have all in one pellets. She needs to start eating again by herself, instead of being syringe fed. This is a huge concern.

I went to the vets to drop some food off for her, before I found out her diet must be changed. I was allowed to give her hugs, but felt like I was going to faint. The room went grey, I felt sick, dizzy and over-heated. I had to end my time with Snugs, quicker than I wanted to, but I didn’t want to drop her. With looking at that lump and seeing her half the size of the skin and bones she was before she had the op; plus the pink stream from where the injection and maybe blood had mingled in her coat, and the smells, and her moaning in pain, it’s no wonder I nearly passed out. Snuggles is a brave warrior, braver than me, and my hero for eternity. Miss her tonight. As I do every night I don’t see her.

I got that pretty necklace from Disneyland Paris and I wear it a lot. It reminds me that dreams can come true, that wonderful things can happen, and that magic and miracles can occur. I rub it and believe it so much. I also believe in Snuggles and in never giving up!

Wish Snuggles Good Luck!

Unfortunately, Snuggles has stopped eating and drinking again by herself. The vets in Dawlish where my mum lives, could not find the cause when examing her yesterday morning. That same day, my own vet in Exeter, who had just returned from holiday that day, found a mass in her tummy. He knew it just from feeling her tummy and an ultrasound confirmed it.

The lump is either a tumor or an enlarged liver, due to her not eating much. On Thursday 23rd of October, she will have surgery to determine what the lump is, and if it can be operated on. She is weaker than should be to undergo an operation and anaesthetic. Please wish her good luck.

Who Wants to Join The Piggie Party? – Snuggles’s 3rd Birthday!

Hi everyone

I am pleased to report that Snuggles is recovering from her Bloat/Gastritis/Gut Stasis, life or death illlness. A huge thanks to my mum, for tirelessly nursing and syringe feeding her. She still continues to do so. I will always be eternally grateful to my mum for saving Snuggles’s life, and the fact she was alive for her third birthday party, on Sunday 12th of October.

How do you celebrate your pet’s birthday?

Write soon, embrace your quirky and your pet’s quirky too.

Sandra

Who needs a massage?

Hi everyone

I am back from my holiday in Disneyland Paris and London. I had the time of my life and have a ton of great photos and a few videos to share with you. Including a video of the Disney Dreams show and the most amazing rollercoaster screaming video ever – As it’s got me in it, I am a bit biased but it is hilarious. I can’t help but laughed at myself.

But firstly; who needs a massage?
Snuggles does. Snuggles has been severely ill whilst I was on holiday, and since I got back. She had a second operation on her teeth today. A tooth problem has given her Bloat, that meant her tummy swelled with gas from not eating and digesting food properly. She has been in a life or death situation. She is still at risk. I read on the internet that a massager can help with Bloat. So I bought her a HoMedics Shiatsu massage cushion to ease her pain, and get things moving along the gut. It seems to have been working – notice the plops, and helping to ease her pain as she can chill out on it. It was £50 well spent. I have always wanted one myself, but felt it was too expensive for me. Nothing is too expensive for my Snugs. She is my best friend and I need her to make a full recovery and live. Her third birthday is this Sunday 12th of October. I have been staying at my Parent’s with her. My mum is doing an amazing job of syringe feeding her and looking after her, and she will continue to do so while I return to my day job tomorrow.

I went on a mad shopping spree in Disneyland Paris, and bought a lot of stuff for myself, including this awesome top.

Write and post more about my holiday soon
Sandra