Dear Writing I’ve Missed You – A Letter To My Love Of My Life – A Writing Poem From My Soul


 

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Author Sandra Bellamy With Her Asexual Perspectives Paperback Book

Happy to say that I have an extra Asexual Sex Story for my Asexual Guide To Sex book and all next month my main focus is finishing writing this book. Which will be my second for asexuals.

Writing will always, always, always be the love of my life. I want to write a letter here to my love of my life.

Dear writing I’ve missed you.
I’ve missed you so much, I want to kiss you.
Without you in my life, I feel like I am dying,
And right now I am crying.

I am trying to do the ‘right thing’,
I am trying to do what should bring,
Well you know, the big M thing,
But dear writing you are the only thing,
Academic wise,
That makes me come alive,
You are the one thing,
That never tires,
And the one thing I never, ever despise.

Writing is like setting your soul free,
It’s the ONLY way in my opinion,
You can ever leave a true, lasting legacy,

It’s the only way you can truly change the world,
You can light up another’s life,
And make them see,
That all the truth and power,
Lies within thee.

Dear writing I have missed you,
I truly want to kiss you,
You are my heart and soul,
And without you I am dying inside,
If truth be told.

So what happens when we are not doing what we are suppose to be,
Is our body reacts, involuntary,
It shakes us up and makes us see,
We aren’t fulfilling our true destiny,

God, the universe, the powers that be,
Show you the dangers of not living your destiny,
They give you pain, they induce the worst,
To say what the heck do you think you are doing, Why are you not giving your body what it wants and needs,
And denying it’s thirst.

See you may think writing is just that,
But when you truly listen to your soul,
You know it’s far more than that,
When you deny yourself to use the gift you were born with,
Or you denying it, in favour of another it,
It’s like losing a best friend over and over again,
It’s like agony and then some again.

Your body will go crazy,
Your spirit will feel more lazy,
You heart will pine for something you are denying it,
And all for what?
To conform and fit in?

Maybe this was never your intention,
But maybe subconsciously, that’s what you forgot to mention,
Maybe you need to stop denying your body, heart and mind the truth,
And that is, your writing is living proof,
Of exactly why you were put on this earth,
So please go back to it, and live your full worth.

Go back to the joy that you once new,
And connect with that disconnect,
Your soul and body will thank you.

See you never really left it and me and you know this,
But when you think about it, you body is in a mess,
But it’s nothing you can’t fix.

Because within your body, soul, and mind,
You need to have the courage to know this is my time,
Other things can wait,
But this can’t.

Because you need help,
Others need your help,
And the only way to fix this,
Isn’t by doing what others do,
It’s to look after precious you.

It’s about standing up for what you truly believe in,
For taking a stand and not trying to fit in,
It’s about working hard at what you truly love to do,
It’s about reaching for the stars, the light and the moon,
It’s about getting your best friend back and healing you,
It’s about reaching out to your writing and taking it by the hand and singing Grease Lightening,
It’s about remembering the heart and soul of you,
And that writing is you and at the heart of what you do.

It’s about living your life, fulfilling your own purpose and destiny,
It’s about taking charge of your life and living your truth with passion and vigour,
It’s about being you, Sandra Bellamy the writer,
And loving what you do.

It’s about knowing no other occupation will do,
Because writing is your life, it’s your heart, its about you.

When I say it’s about you, you know it’s designed to help others too.

You went through shit,
And you got through it,
You needed that to happen,
To write about it.

You needed to have lived life,
The rough with the smooth,
Now go ahead again,
And prove them wrong.

Be who you are truly born to be,
Don’t hold back,
Don’t come from a place of want and need,
Don’t come from a place of lack.

For when I think about writing,
There is a joy within my heart,
Like nothing I ever feel again,
Nothing ever comes close to this piece of me,
That’s why I have to fulfil my writing destiny.

I want to thank you God and the powers that be,
For manifesting chaos and pain within me,
Because I know you want me to see the truth,
No one and nothing can heal me, but my own self.

So I am going back to writing more,
To blogging,
And opening up my writing door,
And if I have to leave other plans behind I will,
But I think that maybe, just maybe, it’s been about writing all along,
Because I don’t do a business in which I can’t sell books,
I don’t just do a business and this I overlook,
It’s always in the back of my mind,
How can I help more people, using my writing shine!

But right now more than ever, I need to help me,
Because by helping myself, I will always help others you see,
They will always go hand-in-hand for me,
And that’s why I need to fulfil my writing destiny.

I noticed I just used the word need,
But when I use that word in the context of writing,
It’s a need within my soul,
It’s a thirst within my heart,
And I have been denying it more of late,
To focus on other things and make this wait.

No more will writing wait for me, it’s fighting back in my mind,
And telling me to fulfil my destiny,
It’s longing and it’s missing me,
When all is lost and gone,
Writing will still be with me.

So close the doors and shut your eyes,
Getting back to what you love and come fully back alive.
Go back to living and being beautiful you. Loving truly what you love to do.

Get your writing best friend back,
No longer have this lack,
Go grab it now and end it’s sorrow,
Dance with it in the moonlight,
And no longer will you need to borrow,
Short term happiness,
But you will get that writing friend back and put an end to this madness.

For one perfect month, I want you to focus at least,
On your writing joy,
And having a writing feast,
On getting back to the true love of your life,
Who has always been by your side.

Instead of leaving your writing best friend,
To fend for itself,
And be behind you,
Waiting from afar,
I want you to join hands once again, and live in writing bliss and harmony,
Focusing on your destiny.

Because when all is said and done,
And you look back at your life, and you are almost gone,
You will go with a happiness inside of you,
That you lived your true authentic life,
You did what YOU do,
And your legacy will live on.

 

It’s great to be back with you. Missed blogging and writing so much xx

Stay quirky and write soon

Sandra xx

 

I Love Me A Poem By Sandra Bellamy


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With International Celebrate Being Single Day #ICBSD only a few days away, I thought it is time to celebrate being single and why it is important to say to yourself “I Love Me”.

I Love Me

A Poem By Sandra Bellamy

I love me for being unique, for being one of a kind and never bleak.

I love me for recognising I am like no other, for loving myself and taking the bother, to discover who I really am, my true purpose, because about me, I give a damn!

I love me for being my quirky crazy self, for understanding me, when no one else will.

I love me for cuddling me, for being there when things go blue, with a cup of tea or two.

I love me from head to toe, I love my lips, my hair, my eyes, my glow.

I love me for my deep appreciation of who I am, for being positive whenever I can.

I love me for every wobbly bit, for every sparkle, and for saying about life; that I love it!

I love me because I am my own best friend, from beginning to the end.

I love me to the ends of the earth, I love me to the moon and back, I love me just the way I am and that’s a fact.

I love me because I don’t try to be something I am not, and I love me for being me, weaknesses; strengths; the whole lot!

Hope you enjoyed that poem?

What do you love most about being you? And what are your plans for International Celebrate Being Single Day, #ICBSD, on Feb 14th??

Until next time, stay Quirky and Write soon

Sandra xx

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You Have The Power Within You! Motivational/Inspirational Poem By Sandra Bellamy LIVESTREAM!


 

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You Have The Power Within You was the first Motivational/Inspirational poem I have done on a LiveStream – check it out and let me know what you think in the comments below??

Everbody has the power within them to achieve great things, I always remember what Entrepreneur, Author and Speaker, Brendon Burchard say, “honour the struggle” and “your current circumstances do not dictate your future” – this is true! In 2018, I am going to be an online course trainer for myself, teaching others personal and professional development stuff, as well as getting other experts onboard – cannot wait! Super excited about that!!

I have had a lot of challenges over the past couple of months:

  • Redundancy from my day job of 5 years that I enjoyed (everything happens for a reason)
  • 10 websites hacked – only just got every one of them back to some form of normality last week! ( Learnt a ton about websites security and using CPanel/File Manager, MyPHP Admin, MySQL, and more of a pro now, so hopefully it won’t happen again with the amount of security I now have in place on each site) and my completely new websites www.sandrabellamy.com and www.sandrabellamy.co.uk that I rebuilt from scratch, are looking good! Check them out and let me know what you think in the comments below please??
  • Split up with my first asexual boyfriend I ever had as he was no good for me and turned out not to be the loving and smitten person with me, that I thought he was! Now looking forward getting a more trustworthy guy for me and one who values my worth, or staying single forever, but hugely career focused for the next year – 2018!
  • Commercial printer (only printer I have, out of action for a month – finally got it working again in the last week!)
  • Appliance I bought was safety recalled (got a better model at no extra charge, and difference in cost with the higher insurance paid for me)
  • Have done no more work on Fibro book since being made redundant and I have people wanting to buy it (have connected online with more Fibro sufferers though, who may end up buying it)

I have decided to live more as ‘quirky’ me since being made redundant and sleep in the day and work throughout the night now usually – great for the soul and far more productive – If I get a ‘normal’ job it will be hard, as I love my life so much right now, in this moment, and forever – but I need money coming in! So we shall have to see what destiny holds for me. I am not afraid of hard work and do that every day almost – apart from the odd day if I see a friend! Even then, if I can squeeze work in then I will!! But next year needs to be more implementation, risk taking, and far more productive for me. Next year, will be my year to shine! Watch this space!

As always, stay quirky and write soon

Sandra xx

Do You See Your Beauty? Inspirational/Motivational Poem By Sandra Bellamy


Do You See Your Beauty? Inspirational/Motivational Poem By Sandra Bellamy. Do you see your beauty, or do you see a tree …

 

I am off to London tomorrow and EuroDisney on Sunday 23rd April for my 21st Mindset birthday celebration – 7 whole days, one week of quirky teenage fun. This is when I get to be truly me 24/7, not work, apart from Facebook video and posts from the park!! Join me on my 21st Mindset Birthday on my www.facebook.com/quirkybooksnet page, on my birthday, Monday 24th of April, and see posts and updates from me on that day in Disneyland Paris xx Permission to wear anything Disney, Super-hero, fun, post your pics on there. Theme is Disney and to have the mindset of a 21 year old or younger. You have to think, act and be, like a 21 year old, and see how much you can achieve, with no hang-ups, no worries, no caring what people think and just having a blast! Be unstoppable!! Stay quirky always xx I am in the actual park from 23-27th of April and back in London again on the 28th!!

Out Of The Shadows! Inspirational/Motivational Poem By Sandra Bellamy


I am currently off sick from my day job, but creating stuff is very therapeutic for me, so this is why I created this “Out Of The Shadows, Inspirational/Motivational Poem” for you. I hope you enjoy it.  Let me know what you think? Don’t forget to subscribe to my channel if you haven’t done so already, and thanks for your continued support xx

As always, stay quirky xx

Sandra xx

In Loving Memory Of My Snuggles Who Sadly Died This Morning


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Sadly Snuggles died at the vets at around 3am this morning. I got a phone call at around 9am.

I have felt devastated all day, upset, and really sorry I could not have Snuggled/C2013-10-12 08.52.13uddled her for longer yesterday, because I felt so faint in the vets.

Today I have had to do practical things, that I really wasn’t in the mood for. I had to go to the bank to transfer money for rent and set up two accounts. Including, one for pet insurance. I also had to take the money out of my ISA to pay for Snuggles’s operation.

After the excruciating amount of money I have spent over last year and this year, I need to insure Snow and Chesnut. As Daisy had a lump problem before, and may still have one (check-up this Thursday), I cannot insure her for that, but I can for other illnesses that are non-related to any pre-existing conditions.


To my beautiful Snuggles:

Your eyes are gleaming,

Your love is beaming,

A ray of sunshine back into my heart.

I remember you as a baby,

Your tiny nose,

Furry coat

And fluffy whiskers

You always had such a bounce and spring in your step,

You lived your life with no regret,

You wheeked and wheeked for your favourite veg,

You bumbled along, bold and amazing.

You were a warrior and my hero,

Seeing you yesterday come back to life, from almost dead, was incredible,

You are sensational,

You are my bestest friend

And you always will be.

You licked my tears away from my face

With your gentle grace,

As I cried uncontrollably from my Grandma’s death.

Even though you were frailer,

Your eyes squinting and paler,

You still made the effort to lick my tears this week,

You were a second mum to me.

You were so cute, cuddly and snuggly.

You loved snuggling under my chin,

If guineapigs could smile,

You would have had an awesome grin.

You were the most beautiful and precious pig,

A gorgeous tri-colour.

If I grow up to be half as strong as you were,

I will be so proud of me,

But best of all,

I will always be so proud of you my dearest Snuggles,

You will forever be,

My little baby.

I love you with all of my heart,

Now and forever,

One day we will again be together,

But for now,

I will enjoy each and every minute of life.

Because to be alive is great,

It’s the greatest blessing and comfort of all,

I love you forever and more,

Eight good luck kisses for you

XXXXXXXX

Say hello to Peaches and Cinnamon too.

I am happy we discussed death in your final days,

So it’s not such a haze,

But a sacred place where we have been together,

I love you, come what may be the weather.

We will always be furry soul mates,

With no hesitate.

I love you until eternity and back.

My dear Snuggles,

I am thrilled you lived to be three,

Now go and be pain free,

Play in the garden of heaven,

I would say save a place for me,

But I don’t want to tempt my fate,

I want to live to be a hundred,

Or much later.

I still have hope, optimism and positivity,

You always inspired that within me.

I love you for that and all of your amazing ways,

I love you for you, always xxxxxxxx

Try something different – Try something new


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Try something different,
Try something new,
Have a purple potato,
Or two.

Try something different
Add something new,
Create excitement,
For what you do.

Try something different,
Do something new,
A hobby, a location,
A job or two.

Try something different,
Read, watch, listen,
To something new,
Monitor your thoughts and feelings
And your actions too.

Think something different,
Think something new,
Be brave, face your fears
And make your dreams come true.

(Despite their appearance, these potatoes were very yummy. I ate this meal in London, prior to walking around the Digital Revolution Exhibition.)

Write soon
Sandra

A celebration of life – I love you my dear Grandma


Think of death, not as the end
But as a celebration of life,
Of two souls meeting in a parallel Universe of different state and Matter.

Think of that place, as an Existance in time and space,
Think of it as the unspoken word,
The ever knowing, but never Talking, the calm and tranquillity,
The pleasure and sincerity, the Place where we shall meet but Never touch or embrace, it bears a Different face.

It is your face that I see in my time Of need, you hug me in the
Shadows,
You hug me in the light,
Both day and night.

I feel you watching over me,
How I long for your company,
The smiles, the laughter that we Shared,
Coming from absolutely nowhere.

The tender look, the open smile,
Makes the pain all worthwhile.
To have known you in a blessing,
To have felt you, was amazing,
To have you in my life, was Incredibly special and to have you in my heart always, is priceless.

I love you my dear Grandma.