I don’t want to dwell but I wanted to share with you pictures of my beautiful flowers sent from the vet, in memory of my beautiful Snow.
Snow is okay! Phew! These selfies were taken the night before Snow’s operation on her teeth yesterday. I have some awesome news, Snow’s tongue is not attached to her cheeks, she had tongue entrapment, so that her tongue was in effect clamped down to the bottom of her mouth by her teeth. She has had surgery yesterday to both her top and bottom teeth, and now her tongue is free and hopefully she should start to put weight back on and not need to go back. She was 8.08 on Fri in weight and 8.03 yesterday. 1KG on 31st of May when she last had her teeth cut. She is eating a lot more this morning and much more lively. Lets look forward to happier times for Snow.
I love my Snow, she literally means the world to me and tomorrow she goes under anesthetic again. And she seems to be handling this news a lot better than me!
This morning I bathed her and Chestnut before work and you could see all the more, how much weight she has lost. Although her eyes and still bright and she is still strong inside and feisty – pushing past Chestnut at times and trying to climb out of the sink I bathed her in this morning. This is a recent picture of her before the most dramatic weight loss over this week.
On Friday she was dropping some piggie mix from her mouth and coupled with the weight loss, I felt it was best to get her to see a vet that day. Chestnut always goes with her – good job, as Snow was diagnosed with mites aside from possibly her teeth being overgrown again and confirmed weight loss. She was 1kg on 31st May, now 8.08. But both have to have mite treatment and Chestnut has to be weighed for this too.
The vet could not see Snow’s teeth for the tongue being attached to her cheeks so tomorrow the head vet will anesthetise her to take a closer look at what is going on! I pray it is nothing worse and that Snow will be okay.
I am feeling sad now so going to say write soon and always follow your heart!
Love and hugs
Thank you deeply for all of your beautiful wishes regarding the death of Snuggles. It’s hugely comforting to know we have been in your thoughts and prayers.
Snow had her second birthday on the 15th of October and I have an awesome video of her, on her birthday, to share with you in a future post. Plus, I still have a ton of Disneyland Paris photos and some videos from there too. Do not miss the video of me screaming on a rollercoaster, it’s hilarious.
Unfortunately, Snow was rushed in for emergency surgery on Monday 27th. She couldn’t eat or drink and I found an abscess on her left cheek. She was cut open and now has a tube through her cheek, that is acting as a drain. My mum is looking after her and she has a checkup tomorrow. Daisy is also going to the vets tomorrow for a lump check.
Be a warrior in your own life, is exactly how I am feeling right now.
As you know, I often think of life events in terms of stories, right now, I see myself as a warrior, protected by a suit of armour. Being knocked down to the floor and getting back up time and time again. Fighting through life’s challenges. Rebuffing, the constant unpleasant surprises snd thinking of the time when I will be in a field of daisies with the sun beaming down on my golden hair and helmet comfortably tucked under my arm.
I still think life is beautiful. I still see its wonder. I try to be mindful of the present, while looking to the future.
3 deaths so far this year. My Grandma, Cinnamon and Snuggles.
Life is a test, be a warrior in your own life and let nothing stop you from feeling its amazing beauty and that it’s fantastic to be alive.
Keep pursuing your dreams, keep moving forward with your life, keep looking to the future and keep fighting to live, survive and thrive.
Be a warrior in your own life and be truly unstoppable.
Embrace your quirky and write soon
Whee are utterly heartbroken and so very very sorry for your loss.
Snuggles may have passed away,
And your heart’s clearly breaking,
But remember all the good times,
And let them ease the aching.
Let the memory of her squeak,
And the smile on her lips,
Bring you some small comfort,
When your heart’s in griefs grips.
She is no longer of this Earth,
Over the Rainbow Bridge she stays,
Happy, free and painlessly,
In the meadows in the sky she plays.
So dry your tears,
And take my hand,
Smile my dear friend,
Because, like a circle,
Her life and your love,
Will surely never end.
You are in our thoughts
Sadly Snuggles died at the vets at around 3am this morning. I got a phone call at around 9am.
I have felt devastated all day, upset, and really sorry I could not have Snuggled/Cuddled her for longer yesterday, because I felt so faint in the vets.
Today I have had to do practical things, that I really wasn’t in the mood for. I had to go to the bank to transfer money for rent and set up two accounts. Including, one for pet insurance. I also had to take the money out of my ISA to pay for Snuggles’s operation.
After the excruciating amount of money I have spent over last year and this year, I need to insure Snow and Chesnut. As Daisy had a lump problem before, and may still have one (check-up this Thursday), I cannot insure her for that, but I can for other illnesses that are non-related to any pre-existing conditions.
To my beautiful Snuggles:
Your eyes are gleaming,
Your love is beaming,
A ray of sunshine back into my heart.
I remember you as a baby,
Your tiny nose,
And fluffy whiskers
You always had such a bounce and spring in your step,
You lived your life with no regret,
You wheeked and wheeked for your favourite veg,
You bumbled along, bold and amazing.
You were a warrior and my hero,
Seeing you yesterday come back to life, from almost dead, was incredible,
You are sensational,
You are my bestest friend
And you always will be.
You licked my tears away from my face
With your gentle grace,
As I cried uncontrollably from my Grandma’s death.
Even though you were frailer,
Your eyes squinting and paler,
You still made the effort to lick my tears this week,
You were a second mum to me.
You were so cute, cuddly and snuggly.
You loved snuggling under my chin,
If guineapigs could smile,
You would have had an awesome grin.
You were the most beautiful and precious pig,
A gorgeous tri-colour.
If I grow up to be half as strong as you were,
I will be so proud of me,
But best of all,
I will always be so proud of you my dearest Snuggles,
You will forever be,
My little baby.
I love you with all of my heart,
Now and forever,
One day we will again be together,
But for now,
I will enjoy each and every minute of life.
Because to be alive is great,
It’s the greatest blessing and comfort of all,
I love you forever and more,
Eight good luck kisses for you
Say hello to Peaches and Cinnamon too.
I am happy we discussed death in your final days,
So it’s not such a haze,
But a sacred place where we have been together,
I love you, come what may be the weather.
We will always be furry soul mates,
With no hesitate.
I love you until eternity and back.
My dear Snuggles,
I am thrilled you lived to be three,
Now go and be pain free,
Play in the garden of heaven,
I would say save a place for me,
But I don’t want to tempt my fate,
I want to live to be a hundred,
Or much later.
I still have hope, optimism and positivity,
You always inspired that within me.
I love you for that and all of your amazing ways,
I love you for you, always xxxxxxxx
I saw the ‘Never give up’ photo on Facebook, and knew that I must do exactly that. Snuggles has been fighting for her life and I wasn’t about to give up on her. Even though my mum’s vet in Dawlish suggested she may need to be put to sleep, my own vet in Exeter, said there is a slim chance she may survive the operation and he would perform it. She had 3 fatty lumps removed and her ovaries and uterus that they were attached to. The photo is of the smallest lump that was removed. She pulled through the anesthetic well, which is a miracle, and is recovering in the vets tonight. One major problem still remains, her liver is badly damaged with fatty degeneration. It is yellow and may or may not repair itself. I have to cut veg down or out of her diet completely and have all in one pellets. She needs to start eating again by herself, instead of being syringe fed. This is a huge concern.
I went to the vets to drop some food off for her, before I found out her diet must be changed. I was allowed to give her hugs, but felt like I was going to faint. The room went grey, I felt sick, dizzy and over-heated. I had to end my time with Snugs, quicker than I wanted to, but I didn’t want to drop her. With looking at that lump and seeing her half the size of the skin and bones she was before she had the op; plus the pink stream from where the injection and maybe blood had mingled in her coat, and the smells, and her moaning in pain, it’s no wonder I nearly passed out. Snuggles is a brave warrior, braver than me, and my hero for eternity. Miss her tonight. As I do every night I don’t see her.
I got that pretty necklace from Disneyland Paris and I wear it a lot. It reminds me that dreams can come true, that wonderful things can happen, and that magic and miracles can occur. I rub it and believe it so much. I also believe in Snuggles and in never giving up!
Unfortunately, Snuggles has stopped eating and drinking again by herself. The vets in Dawlish where my mum lives, could not find the cause when examing her yesterday morning. That same day, my own vet in Exeter, who had just returned from holiday that day, found a mass in her tummy. He knew it just from feeling her tummy and an ultrasound confirmed it.
The lump is either a tumor or an enlarged liver, due to her not eating much. On Thursday 23rd of October, she will have surgery to determine what the lump is, and if it can be operated on. She is weaker than should be to undergo an operation and anaesthetic. Please wish her good luck.